Left out.

Sometimes is it me or school? Whenever i care for my friends, they just dont appreciate. Whenever i tell them a fact, they just laugh at me. Whats so funny to laugh about? Im just telling u since u dont know but in the end? u still laugh. Whats so funny when u dont know something that others know? Dont u feel embarrased? What makes it worst is that when u say about something which is not true and laugh when i tell u the true fact, u are just making a fool out of urself. Dont u know that how much u have hurt me. Doing it once is alright for me but its not the 3rd time already. I cared for u thats why i correct u with the right answer. Just knowing a little does it means that i need to be humilated and hurt? Whats wrong with me telling u more about kpop? I tell u the reason about why super junior may be a little less popular since u say that super junior now less popular. I was trying to protect and make sure there is a misunderstanding in her interpretation and not to let people think that they are less popular. Being a fan for super junior, i was definitely filled with some anger about what she say as she is someone who does not know much about kpop and said such remark. So i told her the reasoning. In the end? She laughed and said:" Eh G***** ******." With her saying this, i think that they did talk behind my back when i went oversea and had to skip school that period. This is not the first time. True. I did it before. But i was just saying some dissapprovement of attitude but still love them as a friend since everybody definitely have some flaws. At least when she say that, i know that her friend that she called did not laugh out but just give a smile with a little laughing reaction and the others just keep quiet. Now i do know who is true and fake. What i also realised is that, u are always the one that talk behind others back first. You said u dont like being left out. Me too. Everybody also does not want to be alone and left out. But u didnt need to start talking to other friend first so that u will not get left out and not caring about the rest that get left out. Your selfishness will just bring unhappiness. Sometimes, i really wonder, is it because of the school im in thats why the students and teachers are like that? Me being left out at cca too. Usually get forgotten by the people inside. Not being able to play the songs and has no senior to look towards to. It just makes me feel why im born for nothing. For the people out there feeling this way, dont feel depressed because of not having true friends. Its hard. I know. Im trying too. Try to tell how u feel to someone whom u find it comfortable to be with.